Chandralekha Das

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Chandralekha Das

 

Transplant gave me freedom to live

When I faced a life threatening illness I never expected to become a sturdy shock absorber. Now after many years of many trials and tribulations I’m a tough nut to crack.

I recall those times, now referred to as “time before….”when life was plain joy. One has to just live it. No worry, no tension. It was about office, friends and some fun times. And the time, when I had a medical check up and, “There seems to be some problem. Traces of protein is detected in the urine,” the doctor had said thoughtfully.

“Doctor, I am travelling to Ireland on a corporate training. Can I travel?” I asked with some worry.

“Not such a great problem. You can travel.” He had remarked casually. With great relief and thanking him profusely I left his clinic after paying his fee. Now I was free to spread my wings and see my career fan out. I had done a Masters in Mass Communication, professionally I was satisfied with this overseas training and getting a Managerial position. For a simple Bengali girl, with a middle class family living in Assam, working in Pune, going for an overseas training was a big deal.

2009 was monumental, in every way. I was married to another professional and life was satisfying. After marriage we shifted to Delhi and later to Bangalore to meet job requirements. These small changes were fine. But when major changes surfaced the true challenge of life is experienced.
One day I was getting ready to go to work as usual but suddenly I felt breathless. The condition made me decide to skip work. My husband rushed me to the hospital. Shockingly my BP was at 220/120. The doctor quickly ordered some tests. The blood test revealed high creatinine at 5.6mg/dl. I was rushed into the ICU; my parents were summoned and we fell into a loop visiting hospitals and doctors for further medical opinions. But all hospitals, doctors showed me the door to kidney transplant.

Kidney Transplant meant an eligible donor. My parents were aged, with medical issues so they were not candidates for kidney donation. My husband introduced me to an ayurvedh. The medicines given by him brought down my creatinine to 2.2mg/dl in 5 months. Before resuming work, I went to live with my parents at Silchar to recoup my health. A few days later we received a shocking call from my mother-in-law. It was an outburst on how my husband’s life was affected by my health.

The next few minutes blurred. I remember I had collapsed with a thud. Many calls later, my mother murmured, “Your mother-in-law called. Unhappy about your condition and suggesting a divorce.” It was an agonizing time. Our peace was shattered.

Finally my husband called me, “I think it is over. We must get divorced.” In my extreme weak state of mind, I spoke emotionally, “Why, why do you want to divorce me?” He replied in anger, “You know why, ask yourself.” Even though I breathing heavily he spoke in a unfamiliar tone, “Your blood test had shown traces of protein and you concealed it from me, remember?” I cried, reasoned and pleaded my innocence, but he was in no mood. The drama continued. My pleading gave him a position of power.

He softened enough to say, “Yes, you can also live with me and my wife.”

I was clueless how to handle my two deep losses. Losing a relationship that I had nurtured and seeing my life vanish to kidney failure. I felt threatened by both situations. My marriage had hit the rock; my family would be deeply affected as their limited savings were spent on my marriage. At no time did I feel the disease was less important. I was physically and mentally bruised! I stayed away from everyone and I felt lost, defeated. There remained no joy in life. I was eating less, sleeping less and lived by myself lonely in my room.

I tried to understand what changed my loving husband against me. Every part of my body reacted with sorrow, my heart slipped too many beats and my head reeled with worry. In this period my health had taken an ugly turn. I was rushed to the ICU and was hooked to oxygen to keep me going.

Suddenly everything changed as my family rose to the occasion and responded very positively to bring me out of throes of deep hurt and agony. My mother held my hands and with her eyes shining with love she said, “I’ll give you my kidney, Lekha. Forget everything now. Only think of your health.” Slowly it dawned to me that my life was valuable to people who mattered, people who loved and valued my existence.

The kidney transplant happened in Hyderabad under a well renowned doctor. And life changed miraculously. My self-confidence returned and I knew I had to move on with life. Now I was in a condition to analyse my case better. “How was I, who never knew anything about kidney disease till 2012, know small details on the blood report?“ “Did the doctor ask me to come back for a follow-up, which I didn’t take notice of?” Without an answer to any of my musings, I gave up my search for theories.

I completed my first year of transplant. Things seemed fine. But there was severe bleeding so I was advised a pap smear. There were strong indications of cancer. So a colposcopy was done. My uterus was in a very bad shape. To be sure, a kidney biopsy was also done. Finally, to my relief it was traced to tuberculosis of the uterus. Within a year I recovered completely with medications.
A few years back the divorce came through liberating me from an unworthy relationship.

Sometimes I think of my major life experiences. Those troubled years I realize, changed me completely. I emerged a stronger person who fails to permit shadows of a dark past ruin the present joys of life. There is relief to know I’m complete, intact possess valuable things for a good life. I’m happy I don’t have to crawl to find my identity and gain public acceptance. My family and friends rejoice my being.

“You are my Warrior,” she whispered. I looked up at my savior, my loving mother and know indeed I have everything with me.

Chandralekha Das

 

నా ఆరోగ్యం ప్రాణాపాయ స్థితిలో ఉన్నదని తెలిసినప్పుడు నేను జీవితంలో ఇంత ధృడంగా ఉండగలనని నేను కూడా అనుకోలేదు.కానీ ఇన్ని సంవత్సరాల ఈ నా ప్రయాణం నాకు ఎన్నో అనుభవాల ద్వారా నన్ను దృడంగా చేసింది.

గతంలో జీవితం అంతా ఎంతో సాధారణంగా గడిచింది.ఎటువంటి ఆందోళనలు లేకుండా చాలా ఆనందంగా ఉండేది.ఆఫీస్ మరియు ఖాళీ సమయాల్లో స్నేహితులతో సరదాగా గడపటం,జీవితం ఇలా ఎంతో మామూలుగా గడిచేది.ఒక సమయంలో సాధారణ వైద్య పరీక్షలకి డాక్టర్ దగ్గరికి వెళ్లినప్పుడు పరీక్షించిన డాక్టర్ మూత్రవిసర్జనలో ప్రోటీన్లు(protein) ఉన్నాయని తేల్చారు.

“డాక్టర్,ఒక కార్పొరేట్ ట్రైనింగ్ నిమిత్తం నేను ఐర్లాండ్ వెళ్తున్నాను.నేను ప్రయాణాలు చేయవచ్చా?”అని డాక్టర్ గారిని అడిగాను.

“డాక్టర్,ఒక కార్పొరేట్ ట్రైనింగ్ నిమిత్తం నేను ఐర్లాండ్ వెళ్తున్నాను.నేను ప్రయాణాలు చేయవచ్చా?”అని డాక్టర్ గారిని అడిగాను.
“పర్వాలేదు,ఇదేం అంత పెద్ద సమస్య కాదు.మీరు ప్రయాణించవచ్చు.”అన్నారు మామూలుగా.చాలా ఉత్సాహంగా అక్కడినుండి బయటికి వచ్చి నా ప్రయాణానికి కావలసిన ఏర్పాట్లు చేసుకోసాగాను. తరువాత నేను Mass Communication లో Masters చేశాను. దీనివల్ల నేను ఇప్పుడు మానేజర్ స్థాయిలో ఉన్నాను.అస్సాం లో నివసించే ఒక బెంగాలీ అమ్మాయి పుణెలో ఉద్యోగం చేస్తూ విదేశాలకి వెళ్ళిరావటం అనేది నాకు సంబందించి చాలా పెద్ద విషయం.

2009 సంవత్సరం నా జీవితంలో మర్చిపోలేను.ఆ సంవత్సరం నా వివాహం జరిగింది.వివాహం తర్వాత ఉద్యోగ రీత్యా మేము డిల్లీ ఆ తర్వాత అక్కడినుండి బెంగుళూరు వెళ్లవలసివచ్చింది. ఆ సమయంలోనే జీవితంలో ఇంత పెద్ద సమస్య వచ్చి జీవితం అనేది ఒక సవాలులా మారింది.

ఒకరోజు నేను ఆఫీస్ కి తయారవుతూ ఉండగా ఒక్కసారిగా ఊపిరి అందక ఇబ్బందిగా అనిపించింది.ఆ పరిస్తితి లో నేను ఆఫీస్ కి వెళ్లలేకపోయాను.నా భర్త నన్ను హాస్పిటల్ కి తీసుకువెళ్లారు.అక్కడ నా బి.పి చూడగా 220/120 ఉంది.వెంటనే డాక్టర్ కొన్ని పరీక్షలు చేయించారు.రిపోర్ట్ లో నా creatinine 5.6mg/dl ఉందని తేలింది.వెంటనే నన్ను ICU లో ఉంచి చికిత్స చేయటం మొదలుపెట్టారు.డాక్టర్లు నాకు కిడ్నీ మార్పిడి(kidney transplantation) చేయాలని సూచించారు.

కిడ్నీ మార్పిడికి సరియైన దాత అవసరం.నా తల్లిదండ్రులు వయసు పైబడిన వారు మరియు వారికి చాలా ఆరోగ్య సమస్యలు ఉన్నాయి.అందువల్ల నా భర్త ఆయుర్వేదం వైద్యం చేయించుకోమని సూచించారు.ఆయుర్వేదం మందుల ద్వారా నా creatinine 5 నెలల్లో 2.2mg/dl కి వచ్చింది.కొన్నాళ్లు ఆరోగ్యం కుదుటపడేదాకా నా తల్లిదండ్రుల దగ్గర ఉందామని అక్కడికి వెళ్ళాను.కొన్నాళ్ళకి మా అత్తగారు ఫోన్ చేసి నా అనారోగ్యం ప్రభావం నా భర్త మీద పడుతుంది అని నన్ను నిందించారు.

నేను ఒక్కసారిగా హతాశయురాలిని అయ్యాను.అది విన్న వెంటనే కుప్పకూలిపోయాను.ఆ తరువాత కూడా వారు చాలాసార్లు ఫోన్ చేశారు.మా అమ్మతో మాట్లాడేవారు.ఒకరోజు ఫోన్ మాట్లాడి వచ్చాక అమ్మ అంది “మీ అత్తగారు నీ ఆరోగ్య పరిస్తితి వల్ల అసహనంగా ఉన్నారు.వారు నీతో విడాకులు కోరుతున్నారు”అంది.అప్పటినుండి మనశ్శాంతి కరువైంది. ఒకరోజు నా భర్త ఫోన్ చేసి “మనం ఒక విడిపోవటమే మంచిది.విడాకులు

తీసుకుందాం”అన్నారు.చాలా బాధపడుతూ”ఎందుకు విడాకులు అడుగుతున్నారు” అని అడిగాను. దానికి “ ఎందుకో నీకు కూడా తెలుసు” అన్నారు. కాసేపాగి “నీ రక్తపరీక్షలో ప్రోటీన్లు ఉన్నాయని తేలింది.అవి నా నుండి వచ్చినవే”.ఆ తరువాత నేను ఎంత రోదించినా తను ఎంతమాత్రం పట్టించుకోలేదు.

ఆ తరువాత స్వరం తగ్గించి “కావాలంటే నువ్వు నా భార్యతో పాటు నాతోనే ఉండవచ్చు.”అన్నాడు.

ఈ పరిస్తితిని ఎలా ఎదుర్కోవాలో నాకు అర్దం కావట్లేదు.ఈ పరిస్తితిలో నాకు జరిగిన నష్టాలు 2.ఒకటి నా భర్త నా నుండి విడిపోవటం, రెండు నా తల్లిదండ్రులు తమ ఆదాయం మొత్తం పెళ్లి నిమిత్తం ఖర్చు చేయటం.ఆ సమయంలో నా మనసు ఎంతో గాయపడింది.ఎప్పుడూ ఒంటరిగా గడిపెదాన్ని.జీవితంలో నేను ఓడిపోయాను అన్న భావన కలిగేది.ఆహారం తినలేకపోయేదాన్ని,నిద్రకూడా పట్టేది కాదు.నా గదిలో ఒంటరిగా కూర్చునేదాన్ని.

నా భర్త మనసు మారటానికి గల కారణం నేను అర్దం చేసుకున్నాను.నా మనసంతా బాధతో నిండిపోయింది.అందువల్ల నా ఆరోగ్యం మరికొంత క్షీణించి హాస్పిటల్ ICU లో చేర్చారు..

ఆ బాధ నుండి తేరుకోవటానికి నా కుటుంబం నాకు ఎంతో సహకరించింది.మా అమ్మ నాకు తన కిడ్నీ ఇవ్వటానికి నిర్ణయించుకుంది.అప్పటినుండి నన్ను గౌరవిస్తూ నన్ను అభిమానించే వారికోసం నేను ఆనందంగా ఉండాలని నిర్ణయించుకున్నాను.

నా కిడ్నీ మార్పిడి ఆపరేషన్ హైదరబాద్ లో ఒక ప్రముఖ డాక్టర్ ఆధ్వర్యంలో జరిగింది. అప్పటినుండి నా జీవితం అనూహ్యంగా మారిపోయింది.నా ఆత్మవిశ్వాసం పెరిగింది.ఇప్పుడు నేను నా సమస్యలను సమర్ధవంతంగా ఎదుర్కొనగలను. “2012 కి ముందు నాకు ఈ కిడ్నీ సమస్య గురించి అస్సలు తెలీదు. రక్త పరీక్షలకి సంబందించి చిన్న విషయం కూడా నాకు తెలీదు.

నాకు కిడ్నీ ఆపరేషన్ జరిగి సంవత్సరం అయ్యింది.నా ఆరోగ్యం బాగా మెరుగైంది.కానీ కొంత కాలానికి నాకు అధిక రక్తస్రావం అవ్వసాగింది.నాకు పరీక్షలు జరిపారు.నా శరీరంలో కేన్సర్ సూచనలు కనిపించాయి.అందువల్ల colposcopy జరిపారు. నా గర్భాశయం సరియైన ఆకారం లో లేదు.కిడ్నీ సమస్య కూడా ఉండటంతో కిడ్నీ బయాప్సీ(biopsy) చేశారు.రిపోర్ట్ లో నా గర్భాశయానికి టి‌.బి(tuberculosis) ఉందని తేలింది.సంవత్సరం చికిత్స తర్వాత నేను పూర్తిగా కోలుకున్నాను.

కొన్ని సంవత్సరాల ముందు నా భర్తకు నాకు విడాకులు మంజూరు అయ్యాయి..

నా జీవితంలో జరిగిన సంఘటనలు ఒక్కసారి నా కళ్ల ముందు మెదులుతూ ఉంటాయి.సంవత్సరాలుగా నేను అనుభవించిన బాధలు నన్ను చాలా మార్చేశాయి.ఇప్పుడు నేనొక ధృడమైన స్త్రీ ని.నా కుటుంబ సభ్యులు మరియు నా స్నేహితులు నన్ను ఎంతో గౌరవిస్తారు. నా అమ్మ నా తోడు ఉంటే ప్రపంచంలో ఉన్న సమస్తం నా వద్దనే ఉన్నట్టు.

Chandralekha Das

 

ট্রান্সপ্লান্ট আমাকে বেঁচে থাকার স্বাধীনতা দিয়েছে

যখন আমাকে একটি জীবন শাসানি অসুস্থতার মুখোমুখি হতে হয়েছিল তখন আমি তার একটি বলিষ্ঠ ঘাতশোষক পরিণতি কল্পনাও করতে পারিনি ৷ অনেক বছরের অনেক  ঝামেলা-ফ্যাসাদ এর পর এখন আমি একটি কঠিন বাদামের হয়ে গেছি ৷

আমার সেই সব সময়ের কথা মনে পরে যায়, যেগুলো কে এখন বলি “পুরানো … সময়” ৷ সেই সময় জীবন সরল আনন্দে পরিপূর্ণ ছিল ৷ শুধু জীবন কে উপভোগ করা ৷ চিন্তামুক্ত, ভাবনামুক্ত ৷  এটা ছিল অফিস, বন্ধু এবং কিছু মজার মুহূর্ত ৷ সেই সময়, আমি একটি মেডিকেল চেক আপ করাই এবং ডাক্তার চিন্তিত ভাবে বলেন, “কিছু সমস্যা ধরা পরেছে ৷ প্রস্রাবে প্রোটিনের চিহ্ন বেরিয়েছে ৷”

“ডাক্তার, আমার কর্পোরেট প্রশিক্ষণের জন্য আয়ারল্যান্ড যওয়ার আছে ৷ আমি কি যেতে পারবো?” আমি চিন্তিত হয়ে জিজ্ঞাসা করলাম ৷

“কোনো বড় সমস্যা নয় ৷ তুমি যেতে পারো ৷” তিনি স্বাভাবিক ভাবেই বলেছিলেন ৷ ডাক্তারের পারিশ্রমিক মিটিয়ে  তাকে অসংখ্য ধন্যবাদ জানিয়ে খুশি মনে ক্লিনিক থেকে ফিরে এলাম ৷ এখন আমি মুক্ত মনে আমার ডানা মেলতে পারি আর আমার কর্মজীবনে মনোনিবেশ করতে পারি ৷ আমি গণযোগাযোগ নিয়ে মাস্টার ডিগ্রি সম্পন্ন করেছিলাম, পেশাগতভাবে আমি এই বিদেশী প্রশিক্ষণ ও ব্যবস্থাপকের পদ পেয়ে সন্তুষ্ট ছিলাম ৷ আসামে বসবাসকারী মধ্যবিত্ত পরিবারের সহজসরল একটি বাঙালী মেয়ের পক্ষে পুনেতে কাজ করা, একটি বিদেশী প্রশিক্ষণের জন্য যাওয়া অনেক বড় ঘটনা ৷

২০০৯ স্মারক ছিল, সব দিক থেকে ৷আমার অন্য পেশাদারীর সঙ্গে বিয়ে হয় এবং আমার জীবন সন্তোষজনক ছিল ৷ বিয়ের পর আমরা দিল্লি চলে যাই এবং পরে বেঙ্গালুরু যাই কাজের প্রয়োজনীয়তা পূরণ করতে ৷ এই ছোট পরিবর্তনটা ভালোই ছিল ৷ কিন্তু যখন প্রধান পরিবর্তনের সময় এল তখন সত্যিকারের সমস্যা কি তা জীবন বুঝতে পারলো ৷

একদিন আমি যথারীতি কাজে যাওয়ার প্রস্তুতি নিচ্ছি হঠাৎ আমার হাঁফানির অনুভূতি হল ৷ এমন অবস্থার সৃষ্টি হল যে আমি কাজে যেতে পারলাম না ৷ আমার স্বামী আমাকে হাসপাতালে ভর্তি করল ৷ তখন আচমকা জানা গেল আমার উচ্চ রক্তচাপ ২২০/১২০ চলছে ৷ ডাক্তার দ্রুত আরো কিছু পরীক্ষার আদেশ দেন ৷ রক্ত পরীক্ষায় ৫.৬ mg / DL উচ্চ creatinine প্রকাশিত হয় ৷ আমায় সঙ্গে সঙ্গে আইসিইউ তে নিয়ে যাওয়া হল; আমার বাবা মা কে ডেকে পাঠানো হল এবং আমরা আরো ভালো চিকিৎসাগত মতামত নেওয়ার জন্য বিভিন্ন হাসপাতাল ও ডাক্তারের কাছে গেলাম ৷ কিন্তু সব হাসপাতাল, ডাক্তার আমাকে কিডনি প্রতিস্থাপনের দরজা দেখিয়ে দিল ৷

কিডনি প্রতিস্থাপন মানে একটি যোগ্য দাতা ৷ আমার বাবা-মা বয়স্ক এবং তাদের চিকিৎসাগত শারীরিক সমস্যা আছে , তাই তারা কিডনি দানের জন্য প্রার্থী ছিলেন না ৷ আমার স্বামী আমার আয়ুর্বেদ চিকিৎসা করল ৷ সেই ওষুধে ৫ মাসে ২.২ mg / DL -এ নেমে গিয়েছিল আমার creatinine ৷ পুনরায় কাজ চালু করার আগে, আমি শিলচর আমার বাবা-মায়ের কাছে যাই আমার স্বাস্থ্য পুনরুদ্ধারের জন্য ৷ কয়েকদিন পরে আমরা আমার শাশুড়ীর থেকে একটি অতিশয় বেদনাদায়ক কল পেলাম ৷ তিনি জানালেন কিভাবে আমার স্বামীর জীবন নষ্ট হয়ে যাচ্ছিল আমার খারাপ স্বাস্থ্য -এর জন্য ৷

পরবর্তী কয়েক মিনিট আমার কাছে সব ঝাপসা লেগেছিল ৷ আমার মনে আছে আমি দুম্ করে লুটিয়ে পড়েছিলাম ৷ এরপরেও অনেক কল এসেছিল, আমার মা আমায় বলেছিল, “তোমার শাশুড়ির কল ৷ তোমার অবস্থা নিয়ে তিনি সুখী নন এবং বিবাহবিচ্ছেদের পরামর্শ দিলেন ৷” এটি একটি মর্মান্তিক সময় ছিল ৷ আমাদের শান্তি ভেঙে গিয়েছিল ৷

অবশেষে আমার স্বামী আমাকে ডেকে বললেন, “আমার মনে হয় সব শেষ হয়ে গেছে ৷ আমাদের বিবাহবিচ্ছেদ করা উচিত” ৷ সেই সময় আমার মনের চরম দুর্বল অবস্থা চলছিল, আমি আবেগের সঙ্গে বলেছিলাম, “কেন, কেন তুমি আমার সঙ্গে বিবাহবিচ্ছেদ করতে চাও?” সে রেগে গিয়ে বলেছিল,” তুমি জানো যে কেন, নিজেকে জিজ্ঞাসা করো ৷” যদিও সে শুনতে পাচ্ছিল যে কথা বলতে গিয়ে আমি প্রচন্ডভাবে হাপাচ্ছিলাম তবুও সে খারাপ ভাবেই কথা বলতে থাকলো, “তোমার রক্ত ​​পরীক্ষা প্রোটিন ট্রেস পাওয়া গিয়েছিল আর তুমি আমার কাছ থেকে তা গোপন করেছো, মনে আছে?” আমার নির্দোষীতা প্রমাণ করার জন্য আমি কেঁদেছিলাম, কারণ দেখিয়েছিলাম এবং মিনতিও করেছিলাম, কিন্তু সে এই সব শোনার মেজাজে ছিল না ৷ এই অবস্থা চলতে লাগল ৷ আমার মিনতি তাকে আরো কঠোর করেছিল ৷

সে শান্ত ভাবে বলেছিল, “হ্যাঁ, তুমি আমার এবং আমার স্ত্রীর সাথে বসবাস করতে পারো ৷”

আমি কোনো দিশা খুঁজে পাচ্ছিলাম না যে কিভাবে আমার দুই গভীর লোকসানকে সামলাব ৷ একটি সম্পর্ককে হারানো যেটাকে আমি লালন-পালন করেছিলেন এবং আমার কিডনি খারাপ হওয়ার জন্য আমার জীবন কিভাবে শেষ হয়ে যাচ্ছিল তা শুধু আমিই জানি ৷ আমি উভয় পরিস্থিতিতেই ভয় পেয়েছিলাম ৷ আমার বিয়ের সম্পর্ক বড় ধাক্কা খেয়েছিল; আমার পরিবারেরও ক্ষমতা বেশি ছিল না কারণ তারা বেশিরভাগ খরচই আমার বিয়ের সময় করে ফেলেছিল ৷ কোন সময় আমি আমার অসুস্থতাকে কম গুরুত্ব দেইনি ৷ আমি শারীরিক ও মানসিকভাবে ক্ষত-বিক্ষত হয়েগিয়েছিলাম! আমি সবার কাছ থেকে দূরে থাকতাম এবং আমার নিজেকে খুব একা লাগতো, মনে হত আমি হেরে গেছি ৷ আমার জীবনে আর কোন আনন্দ বাকি ছিলো না ৷ আমি খেতাম কম, ঘুমাতাম কম এবং আমার নিজের ঘরে নিজেকে বন্দী করে রাখতাম ৷

আমি বোঝার চেষ্টা করতাম এমন কি কারণ ছিল যে আমার প্রেমময় স্বামী আজ আমার বিপক্ষে চলে গেছে ৷ আমার শরীরের প্রতিটি অংশ দুঃখের সঙ্গে তীব্র প্রতিক্রিয়া ব্যক্ত করতো, আমার হৃদয় কাঁপতো এবং আমার মাথা চিন্তায় ঘুরতো ৷ এই সময়ের মধ্যে আমার স্বাস্থ্য আরো খারাপ অবস্থায় চলে যায় ৷ আমায় আইসিইউতে ভর্তি করা হয় এবং অক্সিজেন লাগানো হয় আমাকে বাঁচানোর জন্য ৷

হঠাৎ সবকিছু পরিবর্তন হয়ে গেল ৷ আমার পরিবার আমার পাশে এসে দাঁড়ালো এবং খুবই ইতিবাচক ও সহানুভূতির সঙ্গে আমার সঙ্গে কথা বলতে থাকল এই খারাপ অবস্থা থেকে আমায় বের করার জন্য ৷ আমার মা আমার হাত তা ধরলো এবং তার চোখে তখন জল ছিল, আমায় ভালবেসে বলল, “আমি তোমাকে আমার কিডনি দেব, লেখা ৷ এখন সবকিছু ভুলে যাও ৷ শুধু তোমার স্বাস্থ্য-এর কথা চিন্তা কর ৷” ধীরে ধীরে আমার কাছে এটা পরিস্কার হল যে আমার জীবন তাদের কাছে মূল্যবান যারা আমাকে ভালোবাসে, আমার অস্তিত্ব বোঝে ৷
কিডনি প্রতিস্থাপন করানো হল হায়দ্রাবাদের একজন ভাল প্রখ্যাত ডাক্তারের অধীনে ৷ আমার জীবন দৈবক্রমে পরিবর্তিত হয়ে গেল ৷ আমার আত্মবিশ্বাস ফিরে আসে এবং আমি জানতাম আমায় জীবন পথে অগ্রসর হতে হবে আবার ৷ এখন আমি এমন অবস্থায় আছি যে আমি এবার আমার বিষয়টি ভাল করে বিশ্লেষণ করতে পারি ৷ “আমি কেমন ছিলাম, যে ২০১২ পর্যন্ত কিডনি রোগ সম্পর্কে কিছু জানত না, শুধু রক্ত ​​পরীক্ষার বিষয়ে সামান্য জ্ঞান ছিল ৷” “সেই পুরানো ডাক্তার কি আমাকে আবার চিকিৎসার জন্য  তার কাছে যেতে বলেছিলেন, যেটা আমি কখনো নজর দেইনি?” আমার এই সব চিন্তা ভাবনার উত্তর না পেয়ে আমি আমার তত্ত্ব-এর জন্য অনুসন্ধান ছেড়ে দিয়েছিলাম ৷

আমি আমার প্রতিস্থাপনের প্রথম বছর সম্পন্ন করেছিলাম ৷ সব কিছু ভালো চলছিল ৷ কিন্তু সেখানে মারাত্মক রক্তক্ষরণ শুরু হয়েছিল তাই ডাক্তার আমায় মন্ড লেপার পরামর্শ দেন ৷ ক্যান্সারের শক্তিশালী ইঙ্গিত ছিল ৷ সুতরাং একটি colposcopy করা হয়েছিল ৷ আমার জরায়ুর গঠন ঠিক ছিল না ৷ এটা নিশ্চিত যে, কিডনি বায়োপসি করতে হত ৷ অবশেষে, শান্তি পেলাম ৷আমার জরায়ু তে যক্ষ্মার লক্ষণ পাওয়া গেল ৷ এক বছরের মধ্যে আমি ওষুধের সাহায্যে সম্পূর্ণরূপে সুস্থ হয়ে গেলাম ৷

কয়েক বছর আগে বিবাহবিচ্ছেদ আমাকে একটি অযোগ্য সম্পর্ক থেকে মুক্তিদান করেছিল ৷

মাঝে মাঝে আমি আমার জীবনের এতো গুরুত্বপূর্ণ অভিজ্ঞতার কথা চিন্তা করি ৷ সেই অসুবিধাপূর্ণ বছরগুলোয় আমি বুঝতে পারি, আমি নিজেকে সম্পূর্ণভাবে পরিবর্তন করে নিয়েছিলাম ৷ আমি একজন উদিতমানা শক্তিশালী ব্যক্তি যে একটি অন্ধকার অতীতের ছায়া থেকে বর্তমানের আনন্দপূর্ণ জীবনে ফিরে আসার ব্যর্থ হুকুমনামা পেয়েছিলাম ৷ এটা জেনে শান্তি পেয়েছিলাম যে আমি সম্পূর্ণ অক্ষত মনের অধিকারী যেটা একটা ভাল জীবনের জন্য মূল্যবান ৷ আমি খুশি আছি ৷ আমার পরিচয় খোঁজার এবং জনসাধারণের স্বীকৃতি নামার প্রয়োজন নেই ৷ আমার পরিবার এবং বন্ধুদের কাছে আমার অস্তিত্ব আনন্দদায়ক ৷

“তুমি আমার যোদ্ধা,” সে ফিসফিস করে বললো ৷ আমি আমার ত্রাণকর্তী, আমার স্নেহময়ী মা এর দিকে তাকিয়ে বুঝতে পারি প্রকৃতপক্ষে সবকিছুই আমার কাছে আছে ৷

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